So todays been pretty crappy. It started out alright, but went down hill all day.
So you know what? Im not even worth the oxygen and he matter that I take up and use. I've had several brushes with death, and it's been my bad luck to survive them. I know that I'm hated, so I don't know why I convince myself otherwise. I know that I'm meant to be alone. I'm just a dumb fat ho. A spineless yelowbellied coward. I'm not worth the dust found in elephant crap. The whole wide world would be better off without me. Everyone would be happier- me and the world.
You shouldn't waste your time caring about those who aren't worth it. That being said, I know I'm not worth peoples time do people aren't worth mine trying to be worth time. I'm done caring cause the hurts too much. I know Who my friends are don't matter as long as they're a good example. Because statistically a person won't stay in contact with his/her friends from high school. Which means people don't matter.
I'm sick and tired of feeling used. I feel like I'm there for my friends all the time, and then they're never there for me. Life isnt so onesided. What happens next time you need me and I'm not there huh? Cause that's the path we're walking right now.
High school is supposed to be a time of learning. So, that means people need to learn to watch their tongues. Because if you can't watch what you say, your mouth is going to get you in trouble one day. So people better start learning fast, cause humanity has a long way to go.
This has been another useless rant. Humanity pisses me off, and I don't want to live on this planet anymore. This is the end of my useless rant.
You know the best thing abou not having people read your blog? No one knows what you say unless you say you said something, that way no one cares and gets offended and you can say whatever you want.
I am sorry that you had a bad day, and that maybe things didn't go as you wanted them to with your friends. Regardless of what happens with your friends, you need to know that your family loves you for who you are NO MATTER WHAT and that we will be here always.
ReplyDeleteYou are so worth the air that you breathe and the matter that creates you. Even and especially on days that are crappy. Whether you realize it or not, many people -- friends, family, and other people that you may not know -- are watching you. You are a force for good to be reckoned with. You are a bright and shining example to many. And I, for one, am very grateful and glad to know you and have you be a part of my life.
I know that people have bad days, and maybe you were just venting, but just in case you weren't, I need you to know that you are extremely and highly important to me. I love you!
Love, Mom
“You can't always sit in your corner of the forest and wait for people to come to you... you have to go to them sometimes.” ~Winnie the Pooh
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