Rant-1

Here is a rant from me.

I must say I feel quite inadequate- like all the time. Especially in winter drumline, especially in part two. I suck at counting and rhythms and such, and so part two is especially hard for me. And I get so frustrated every time. It's just… arrgh! I was so frustrated yesterday that I went out and punched a wall twice. And because of that I've bruised my knuckle and so it kinda hurts now. :P I haven't punched that wall in awhile and I can't remember why I did before, I was just frustrated.

One thing I hate about ranting on things people read- or can easily- is I don't want people to worry about me. I don't want people to worry about me because I know I'm not worth that worry. I just rant because I need to say some things, just to be them off my chest. You know?

I'm not sure what else to say. These rant posts will probably be shorter, but it will help me.

Yeah whatever

So todays been pretty crappy. It started out alright, but went down hill all day.

So you know what? Im not even worth the oxygen and he matter that I take up and use. I've had several brushes with death, and it's been my bad luck to survive them. I know that I'm hated, so I don't know why I convince myself otherwise. I know that I'm meant to be alone. I'm just a dumb fat ho. A spineless yelowbellied coward. I'm not worth the dust found in elephant crap. The whole wide world would be better off without me. Everyone would be happier- me and the world.
You shouldn't waste your time caring about those who aren't worth it. That being said, I know I'm not worth peoples time do people aren't worth mine trying to be worth time. I'm done caring cause the hurts too much. I know Who my friends are don't matter as long as they're a good example. Because statistically a person won't stay in contact with his/her friends from high school. Which means people don't matter.

I'm sick and tired of feeling used. I feel like I'm there for my friends all the time, and then they're never there for me. Life isnt so onesided. What happens next time you need me and I'm not there huh? Cause that's the path we're walking right now.

High school is supposed to be a time of learning. So, that means people need to learn to watch their tongues. Because if you can't watch what you say, your mouth is going to get you in trouble one day. So people better start learning fast, cause humanity has a long way to go.


This has been another useless rant. Humanity pisses me off, and I don't want to live on this planet anymore. This is the end of my useless rant.

You know the best thing abou not having people read your blog? No one knows what you say unless you say you said something, that way no one cares and gets offended and you can say whatever you want.

Who am I?

I've been thinking lately (a dangerous pastime I know) and I've realized that I really don't know who I am. I know my name, but I don't know how to describe myself, I don't know what my interests are. I don't know what I'm good at. I don't know anything about me. I know there are a bunch of cliche answers out there (more so depending on your culture) but I don't want a cliche answer. I want the truth. I want to know what people think when they see my name or see me. I want to know people's uncensored thoughts about me. Don't worry about offending me because I'm past caring right now. If you're reading this, I beg of you, please do this as a favor to me and tell me what you think of me. You don't have to post it as a comment, just find some way to let me know, because I feel lost and alone. And I'm scared.