Here's just going to a rant... so, yeah, you don't have to read if you don't want to.
Why do I really have no talent? I'm okay at music stuff, can't sing, not good at any sports... the only stuff I'm good at are stuff that don't really matter. Who cares if your in an advanced math class? Who cares if you can read fast? Who cares if you get a six on an essay? Nobody, because it doesn't matter.
Why do I just really suck at talking? I can never keep a conversation going because I don't know what to say because I just ultimately fail at talking. That's bad. Why do I just fail at it? Why am I so anti-social and just don't talk to people because I don't know what to say? Is it because I don't like talking about myself or my achievements because I don't want to be passed off as 'proud'? Is it because I don't know how because I've I'm scared of people because I'm so shy and now I don't know how to talk to people. Is it because I have nothing good to say? Is it because I have a brain disorder that inhibits my talking abilities?
Life is kinda crappy. I'm not happy with choices I've made, and some I am happy with. We keep getting jipped at competitions because judges are stupid little things that don't know something good when it hits them in the face. Why can't we burn syrup-y hills?
Life is full of why's and questions with no answers.
As you can tell I'm in a pessimistic kinda mood right now.
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Sunday, August 29, 2010
School starts and Summer dies, a vicious cycle like a Pheonix
So, last Thursday the first day of school came. The first week went by okay. I enjoyed some classes, not so much on others, and for some reason, I already hate a teacher. Haha, so, school is going to be cool.
So, this Summer, explained in two words? Think I can do it? Well, here I go: Marching Band. Ha! There! Well, it was more than that, but, a lot of it was Marching band, which was freaking awesome, and I thoroughly enjoy it.
Saturday, first marching band thing on Saturday so far, won't be the last. First hour or so we played tag. In the empty high school. It was sick. (as in freaking sweet) Then, for the last couple minutes, we played infection/zombie tag. That was intense. Me and my good buddy Geoff survived the whole thing. I thought to myself that day, playing tag: "Paintball would be awesome in here!" (here meaning the high school)
So, other stuff that happened this summer can be found in lower posts... haha I'm too lazy :P
So, before I go, I just wanna say this, and I don't care what you think, this is the deep part of my post:
My mind is officially messed up right now. I have no idea what my emotions are, what my feelings are and what I think. Yeah, I know it's pretty normal for most people... especially me (haha :P) but, I haven't felt like this in awhile, and never this intensely. Yeah, I know, I spilled a lot about my thoughts, but, I don't know how I feel or think. Life is just like that right now.
So, have a good day/night and my freedom and safety be the air under your wings, and my friendship the light that guides you.
So, this Summer, explained in two words? Think I can do it? Well, here I go: Marching Band. Ha! There! Well, it was more than that, but, a lot of it was Marching band, which was freaking awesome, and I thoroughly enjoy it.
Saturday, first marching band thing on Saturday so far, won't be the last. First hour or so we played tag. In the empty high school. It was sick. (as in freaking sweet) Then, for the last couple minutes, we played infection/zombie tag. That was intense. Me and my good buddy Geoff survived the whole thing. I thought to myself that day, playing tag: "Paintball would be awesome in here!" (here meaning the high school)
So, other stuff that happened this summer can be found in lower posts... haha I'm too lazy :P
So, before I go, I just wanna say this, and I don't care what you think, this is the deep part of my post:
My mind is officially messed up right now. I have no idea what my emotions are, what my feelings are and what I think. Yeah, I know it's pretty normal for most people... especially me (haha :P) but, I haven't felt like this in awhile, and never this intensely. Yeah, I know, I spilled a lot about my thoughts, but, I don't know how I feel or think. Life is just like that right now.
So, have a good day/night and my freedom and safety be the air under your wings, and my friendship the light that guides you.
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Band Camp
These last Two and a half days (Thursday & Friday 8-8 and today [Saturday] 8-12) have been band camp. The most freaking awesome stuff ever. Band is so freaking fun, and I'm so glad Geoff led me into marching band, and got me to learn how to play Tenor Saxamophone (Saxophone to all you stupid people...) [Yeah, I did kinda teach myself how to play Tenor...] and now that I can play and such, Band is even more epic.
Thursday, first half of the day, we did marching stuff,and, we were kinda crappy :P... next half we got our first thing of music, Mr. Roboto (Yeah, we're doing a Styx show this year :D) and, we played that for awhile, and within 3-4 hours (? I'm not sure) most of us had most of the music memorize :D Then, after tracking and such (playing and marching for ignorant and stupid people) we played capture the flag. It was awesome. We played three games (WARNING: I'm not going to try to brag at all, but, if it passes off as that, I am deeply sorry about that, so, I plead for forgiveness now) and my team one all three games. Cody (one of our drum majors) one the first game for us, and he ran the whole field and got the flag, ran back, and it was epic. Next to games... I kinda got the flag, but, only half way. So, someone had gotten the flag half way down the field, but, had gotten tagged, so, I brought it back. The second game (first one I won) I crossed the line as our flag was being carried by the other team (they where about half way to the line when I crossed) so, it was a REALLY close game. Luckily, I had some drumline kids that guarded me per-say and took the tagging for me, so, I made it to the other side. I was sore after that. Next game, I was planning on just guarding, and that I did, for awhile, but, we had like three or four people on our side, when the other team had pretty much their whole team. They got our flag within 5-10 feet of their line, but, they where too scared I guess to go and get the flag, why? I don't know. I ran to the other teams jail (originally headed for the flag, and narrowly escaped Andrew [brass instructor, guarder of other teams flag, and got many people out] and decided to get someone to get a free walk back) so, I walked back, slowly, cause I was tired. I got to my side, and resumed the defense, and yeah. Then, me and Cody some how took off at the same time, so, I was gonna let him go, but, I saw he was going for the jail, and so was some one else, so, I look back and see people going for my teams flag, and so, I was gonna go back to help, but, they where chased off, so, I looked back at the flag, nobody, and I mean NOBODY (the guarders of the flag had taken off after the people going for the jail) so, I booked it to the flag, grabbed it, and booked it towards my line. Someone on drumline noticed me as a neared the line, and they shouted something to the effect of "Guys look-out!" but, I guess it was too late or something, cause nobody reacted, I passed the line, and the game was over, the results surprising me, because of the shortage of my team. The game was then preceded by people hugging/tackling me (because I couldn't hold myself up) and Eva (Color guard instructor, who was on my team) ran up to me (was in jail at the other side at the end of the game) [I was lying on my back in the dirt, to tired to get up haha] and said something like this "I would hug you right now but that would be very inappropriate." (I was secretly happy because I had been hugged like twice or three times, but, I was so sore, the hugs hurt.) So, that was capture the flag which was awesome. But, I think the only reason the other team didn't win was because Jordan Bills was kinda puppy-guarding (well, basically standing right on the flag). So, yeah.
Friday, marching that morning was better. That afternoon music was better, and we tracked, and we got rained out. It poured. The band/drumline played in an arc in the track tunnel area, and the color guard ran inside at the biggest burst of rain. Then, it stopped raining, and we started tracking again, but went inside when we saw lightning fairly close. So, inside, we cleared out the band room, and played train wreck, buddy style I guess. That was fun, a lot of fun. Then, we emptied out the band room (basically) so the janitors could make it all nice and pretty.
Saturday (today) we marched for most of the morning, and from what I hear, it was amazing. Then, we tracked, and we did pretty good. Then, the instructors had us sing our parts to the color guard as they practiced (with our backs to them) and as we where singing, they proceeded to throw (normal) balloons filled with water at us. Some popped, but, others didn't. We didn't break set, then, Cody told us to get them, so, we did. They had us start throwing at guard too, but, that didn't work (normal ballons don't work so well) and, then, as we came and talked, Eva dumped a bucket of water on the Color Guard, and I happened to be next to a few :P and got pretty wet. (:P was for the water getting on my due to my proximity to the guard, not because I don't like the guard), but, it felt kinda nice, and dried quickly.
So, that was my time at bandcamp.
So....
FIZIKS!!!!!!!!!/PHYSICS!!!!!!!
and KILL THE BEAST!
Thursday, first half of the day, we did marching stuff,and, we were kinda crappy :P... next half we got our first thing of music, Mr. Roboto (Yeah, we're doing a Styx show this year :D) and, we played that for awhile, and within 3-4 hours (? I'm not sure) most of us had most of the music memorize :D Then, after tracking and such (playing and marching for ignorant and stupid people) we played capture the flag. It was awesome. We played three games (WARNING: I'm not going to try to brag at all, but, if it passes off as that, I am deeply sorry about that, so, I plead for forgiveness now) and my team one all three games. Cody (one of our drum majors) one the first game for us, and he ran the whole field and got the flag, ran back, and it was epic. Next to games... I kinda got the flag, but, only half way. So, someone had gotten the flag half way down the field, but, had gotten tagged, so, I brought it back. The second game (first one I won) I crossed the line as our flag was being carried by the other team (they where about half way to the line when I crossed) so, it was a REALLY close game. Luckily, I had some drumline kids that guarded me per-say and took the tagging for me, so, I made it to the other side. I was sore after that. Next game, I was planning on just guarding, and that I did, for awhile, but, we had like three or four people on our side, when the other team had pretty much their whole team. They got our flag within 5-10 feet of their line, but, they where too scared I guess to go and get the flag, why? I don't know. I ran to the other teams jail (originally headed for the flag, and narrowly escaped Andrew [brass instructor, guarder of other teams flag, and got many people out] and decided to get someone to get a free walk back) so, I walked back, slowly, cause I was tired. I got to my side, and resumed the defense, and yeah. Then, me and Cody some how took off at the same time, so, I was gonna let him go, but, I saw he was going for the jail, and so was some one else, so, I look back and see people going for my teams flag, and so, I was gonna go back to help, but, they where chased off, so, I looked back at the flag, nobody, and I mean NOBODY (the guarders of the flag had taken off after the people going for the jail) so, I booked it to the flag, grabbed it, and booked it towards my line. Someone on drumline noticed me as a neared the line, and they shouted something to the effect of "Guys look-out!" but, I guess it was too late or something, cause nobody reacted, I passed the line, and the game was over, the results surprising me, because of the shortage of my team. The game was then preceded by people hugging/tackling me (because I couldn't hold myself up) and Eva (Color guard instructor, who was on my team) ran up to me (was in jail at the other side at the end of the game) [I was lying on my back in the dirt, to tired to get up haha] and said something like this "I would hug you right now but that would be very inappropriate." (I was secretly happy because I had been hugged like twice or three times, but, I was so sore, the hugs hurt.) So, that was capture the flag which was awesome. But, I think the only reason the other team didn't win was because Jordan Bills was kinda puppy-guarding (well, basically standing right on the flag). So, yeah.
Friday, marching that morning was better. That afternoon music was better, and we tracked, and we got rained out. It poured. The band/drumline played in an arc in the track tunnel area, and the color guard ran inside at the biggest burst of rain. Then, it stopped raining, and we started tracking again, but went inside when we saw lightning fairly close. So, inside, we cleared out the band room, and played train wreck, buddy style I guess. That was fun, a lot of fun. Then, we emptied out the band room (basically) so the janitors could make it all nice and pretty.
Saturday (today) we marched for most of the morning, and from what I hear, it was amazing. Then, we tracked, and we did pretty good. Then, the instructors had us sing our parts to the color guard as they practiced (with our backs to them) and as we where singing, they proceeded to throw (normal) balloons filled with water at us. Some popped, but, others didn't. We didn't break set, then, Cody told us to get them, so, we did. They had us start throwing at guard too, but, that didn't work (normal ballons don't work so well) and, then, as we came and talked, Eva dumped a bucket of water on the Color Guard, and I happened to be next to a few :P and got pretty wet. (:P was for the water getting on my due to my proximity to the guard, not because I don't like the guard), but, it felt kinda nice, and dried quickly.
So, that was my time at bandcamp.
So....
FIZIKS!!!!!!!!!/PHYSICS!!!!!!!
and KILL THE BEAST!
Monday, August 2, 2010
Flaming Gorge
So, last Wednesday-Saturday (July 28th-31st) I went on a camp out with the teachers and priests of my ward, to Flaming Gorge dam and reservoir. It was pretty freakin' sweet, haha.
So, Wednesday (haha, I spells it 'Wed-nes-day') we left around 12:30 (Well met then, we left about 12:45) for Flaming Gorge. It was a long drive. We got there about 6 or so. We set up camp, and just sat around for the rest of the day.
So, Thursday we got up, had some food, then rented some rafts. That's right! WE WENT RIVER RAFTING DOWN ZE GREEN RIVER! It was awesome. Though, so stuff did happen. On the first trip, we had water fights and such, and that was fun, but, Brother Field got wacked in the head with a paddle and had a concussion, not good. I went in the river a bit, and it was cold cold cold. And my watch broke that trip, so, my only source of time is my phone now :/ but, maybe now I can reach my goal of loosing my watch line, huh? So, it also rained that trip. Second trip, one boat fished, other one relaxed, my boat.... we had a mutiny. We threw each other off, and it was good. I wasn't thrown off then, I jumped off. Haha, good times. I did a front flip off of it, kinda, and it was fun, but, the water was cold there. So, yeah, we went back, had food, and life was good.
So, Friday we went on the Dam tour. (Haha, we cracked dam jokes a lot :D) The Dam tour (}:) ) was pretty cool, the dam was pretty big, and the dam fish where big too (:P) They where big ol' trout that just swam right next to the dam and waited for tourists to feed them, not fun. Then, we did one of the best things. We went cliff jumping in to Flaming Gorge Reservoir. I'm afraid of heights pretty badly, so, I wasn't too sure how fun it would be. I thoroughly enjoyed it though. I mostly jumped off a 10 foot cliff, a couple times a 15 foot cliff, and three times a 20-25 (?) foot cliff (yikes) but, it was fun.
So, Saturday, we packed up (my tent was up before the leaders! WOW!) and we left. We stopped for food on the way home (YAYS!) and then continued home. I got home about 3:01 and was tired, and it was pouring rain. I mean POURING! Then, my family and I went to see Shrek 4. It was better than I thought it would be, but, I was pretty tired so, I was out of it. Oh yeah, I took like 3 different (shortish) naps in the car on the way home, glad I put my pillow in the car! So, all in all, it was a great trip, and I look forward to next year. Thanks to all those who where there who helped make it great! (THAT MEANS EVERYONE THAT ATTENDED!)
So, Wednesday (haha, I spells it 'Wed-nes-day') we left around 12:30 (Well met then, we left about 12:45) for Flaming Gorge. It was a long drive. We got there about 6 or so. We set up camp, and just sat around for the rest of the day.
So, Thursday we got up, had some food, then rented some rafts. That's right! WE WENT RIVER RAFTING DOWN ZE GREEN RIVER! It was awesome. Though, so stuff did happen. On the first trip, we had water fights and such, and that was fun, but, Brother Field got wacked in the head with a paddle and had a concussion, not good. I went in the river a bit, and it was cold cold cold. And my watch broke that trip, so, my only source of time is my phone now :/ but, maybe now I can reach my goal of loosing my watch line, huh? So, it also rained that trip. Second trip, one boat fished, other one relaxed, my boat.... we had a mutiny. We threw each other off, and it was good. I wasn't thrown off then, I jumped off. Haha, good times. I did a front flip off of it, kinda, and it was fun, but, the water was cold there. So, yeah, we went back, had food, and life was good.
So, Friday we went on the Dam tour. (Haha, we cracked dam jokes a lot :D) The Dam tour (}:) ) was pretty cool, the dam was pretty big, and the dam fish where big too (:P) They where big ol' trout that just swam right next to the dam and waited for tourists to feed them, not fun. Then, we did one of the best things. We went cliff jumping in to Flaming Gorge Reservoir. I'm afraid of heights pretty badly, so, I wasn't too sure how fun it would be. I thoroughly enjoyed it though. I mostly jumped off a 10 foot cliff, a couple times a 15 foot cliff, and three times a 20-25 (?) foot cliff (yikes) but, it was fun.
So, Saturday, we packed up (my tent was up before the leaders! WOW!) and we left. We stopped for food on the way home (YAYS!) and then continued home. I got home about 3:01 and was tired, and it was pouring rain. I mean POURING! Then, my family and I went to see Shrek 4. It was better than I thought it would be, but, I was pretty tired so, I was out of it. Oh yeah, I took like 3 different (shortish) naps in the car on the way home, glad I put my pillow in the car! So, all in all, it was a great trip, and I look forward to next year. Thanks to all those who where there who helped make it great! (THAT MEANS EVERYONE THAT ATTENDED!)
Saturday, July 10, 2010
EFY
I got back this morning from EFY. I absolutely loved it! It was a great experience, and even better than Trek (see below for details :P)
So, Monday morning, I got there, got my stuff, and sat around in my room, messing around on my guitar a little. My roommate Mckay walks in while I'm playing guitar. He puts his stuff under his bed, and then tells me that he's going to get some food. So, I guess he went to a cafe with his cousin, and got some delicious looking food. When he comes back, he and I talk, telling about ourselves and such. Then, our councilor Bobby (the bestest ever! :D) and we have the introduction meeting, with all the boys in our company. Then, we go outside to meet the girls, and there are two girls for every boy, interesting odds, right? And so, after meeting the company for a little bit, the boys escort the girls to the institute building, where we get the schpill on rules and such like things. So, that night we have family home evening and we learn some stuff taught by Brother Low (He and Sister Low and G are amazing!) and then we go back to our company spot to play some family home evening games, that have a purpose, and after each game we explain the purpose of that. Oh, our company name was True and Faithful, and that was pretty sweet, but, you'll have to read on for that.
So, Tuesday, we have our Participant Morning Side thing, and then we go outside to meet the girls. Then, it's off to breakfast. Food is good, then we go to the institute building. We have our Session Director Morning Side, and then we go to classes. The classes are amazing. We had Brad Wilcox teaching a class there, that's right, be jealous. Well, so, that day is amazing. The dance that night was pretty sweet, and Bobby started teaching me a foot dance one of his kids had taught us previously.
Wednesday we do fairly the same thing as Tuesday. And then, that night we have Game night and cheer off. We hadn't started our cheer till like 10-20 minutes before. While we worked on the cheer, Mary, Heather, Alexis, and Cami (I think that's it, sorry if I'm wrong)worked on our banner (which was flipping awesome). For our cheer, we did a spoof/parody of 'Don't Stop Believing' and that was pretty cool. We ended up winning the cheer off and banner competition because we're just that cool. Then comes pizza night, and that was flipping sweet. We had pizza, cookies, soda, candy, grapes (:D) and milk, and music playing, and us dancing (Me and Bobby perfecting our foot dance thingy). It was flipping cool. Then, Brother Low came in and had some milk, and we tried throwing grapes in his mouth. Then, as he was leaving he said, 'You guys have the number one party here' and that was cool because that means we won everything :D
Thursday might have been the best day there. So, it was the Sunday of EFY so we got to dress up in nice clothes, and I think that made everyone more serious. So, we get to the institute building and separate Young Men and Young Women, each going to different class thingy. The Young Men went into the east chapel, and we had a fireside devotional thingy. But, we took up most of the time planning and preparing for a surprise that we would put on the next day for the ladies. So, after the planning prep time, Sister Low gave us her fireside lesson thingy in the time that was left, and we went upstairs. We where taught by Sam, our BC. Then we had the Q/A panel come in, and that was very uplifting, they answered questions I didn't really know I had. So, after that is lunch, and then the variety show. Our group had two people in it, Mary and Emily (who both did flipping amazing, no lie) and then we had free time. After free time/dinner, we went back to the institute building for Musical Program (which was pretty nice) and then devotional. Brother Lows devotional was when I started getting teary. Then we practiced singing the medley, and I got even closer to being teary. Then Bobby and two other councilors went up and sang a really spiritually moving song, and my eyes started leaking. Then, we went to testimony meeting. I ended up starting off the testimony meeting (I'm not sure how I did it) and I started crying on my way up to the podium (oh, by the way, we had separated into companies, and we where with another company) and then, when I got up to the podium, I started bearing my testimony, and for the first part, I couldn't open my eyes, and was holding my head down, hoping that my voice wouldn't die (which it does when I get emotional, my throat starts contracting) and then, I finished, and went back down. The testimony meeting continued and my crying continued. I would guess at least 6 separate times I cried. Then, after the testimony meeting we walked back, and I started crying a little more. Then we separated (girls and boys) and went back to our dorms. At our devotional that night, Bobby had us bear our testimonies if we wanted too. All who hadn't gotten a chance bore their testimony. Almost every single boy cried that night in our dorm as we bore testimony to each other, we couldn't help our emotions as we felt the spirit.
Friday comes, and it was also a good day. We had FTSOY (For the Strength of Youth) classes and those where very well done. Then, we had some lunch. It was a pretty good lunch. Then we went and did a service project of tying fleece blankets for the homeless shelter. Then, it was free time, and that was good. Then, we had our Dance, and that was pretty sweet. Me and Bobby showed our foot dance thingy to peoples, and taught some peoples, and Bobby taught me the turn step part. Then we went to our Taking it Home part. But, the video didn't work, so we didn't watch it. But, the boys launched our surprise. We sang 'My Duty To God' and then we said to the ladies (and I completely mean this as I quote it) "Ladies, thank you for having the courage to stand tall, we love you" and then we started applauding them (probably for around three minutes or so) as we got on one knee. We kept applauding and applauding, it was nice. Then, apparently the girls had a surprise of their own. After we sat down, the ladies stood up and recited the Young Womens theme. Then, they sang and a song explaining how God truly knows who they are, and they are all daughters of God. (Beautiful Daughters of God in my opinion) and after that, was sang the EFY theme. Tears started leaking in our group, and I almost did cry. Then, we sang the EFY medley and more tears came. I again almost cried. Then, as we where going outside for our final devotional, I started crying. Then, as we sang "God Be With You Till We Meet Again" I started chocking up, and I had trouble singing. Then, we had a short lesson from each councilor (each councilor is amazing, Bobby, Ashley, and Natalie, I love you guys) and each lesson was amazing, I cried in each one I think. Then, as everyone was crying, we hugged, and that was a nice time too... haha... then we went back to the dorms, crying, laughing, and talking. (I almost cried again typing about this)
Then, today we said our good byes and left, possibly to never see our EFY family again, and we where truly a family, and I loved them like one. On the way home from EFY I almost cried because I probably would never see them again, and I was really depressed and quiet. (I had tears almost falling out of my eyes here)
So, that was my freaking amazing EFY experiance.
Thank you to all those in my company, you truly made this week amazing for me, and I will never forget that. I love each and everyone of you, and I thank you for accepting me. I know that this is God's true church, and he is our loving father. I know that Jesus is my lord and savior, as well as my older brother. He sacrificed himself for me, and for you, so that we may receive eternal salvation. I am so grateful for this. I know Joseph Smith was the prophet of the restoration, and he brought the lords church back to this Earth. I know President Thomas S. Monson is the true prophet of God on this planet. He knows what is best for us, and we would do well to listen to him. I am so grateful for The Book of Mormon, and what it has done for me. Once again, I am so grateful from my EFY family, you truly made this the best week of my 15 years of life. I am sad that it is over. I know that Jesus lives and he will come again for us. I know he is the only way to eternal salvation and happiness, and I hope and pray that one day I may be worthy to possibly even come close to achieving that goal. I know that this church is true, and I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ, amen.
(almost cried again, I'm surprised I didn't)
For all my EFY family company people, I thank you, and I love each and every single one of you. I hope that life may give you all that you need, and, good bye, I hope that we may meet again.
So, Monday morning, I got there, got my stuff, and sat around in my room, messing around on my guitar a little. My roommate Mckay walks in while I'm playing guitar. He puts his stuff under his bed, and then tells me that he's going to get some food. So, I guess he went to a cafe with his cousin, and got some delicious looking food. When he comes back, he and I talk, telling about ourselves and such. Then, our councilor Bobby (the bestest ever! :D) and we have the introduction meeting, with all the boys in our company. Then, we go outside to meet the girls, and there are two girls for every boy, interesting odds, right? And so, after meeting the company for a little bit, the boys escort the girls to the institute building, where we get the schpill on rules and such like things. So, that night we have family home evening and we learn some stuff taught by Brother Low (He and Sister Low and G are amazing!) and then we go back to our company spot to play some family home evening games, that have a purpose, and after each game we explain the purpose of that. Oh, our company name was True and Faithful, and that was pretty sweet, but, you'll have to read on for that.
So, Tuesday, we have our Participant Morning Side thing, and then we go outside to meet the girls. Then, it's off to breakfast. Food is good, then we go to the institute building. We have our Session Director Morning Side, and then we go to classes. The classes are amazing. We had Brad Wilcox teaching a class there, that's right, be jealous. Well, so, that day is amazing. The dance that night was pretty sweet, and Bobby started teaching me a foot dance one of his kids had taught us previously.
Wednesday we do fairly the same thing as Tuesday. And then, that night we have Game night and cheer off. We hadn't started our cheer till like 10-20 minutes before. While we worked on the cheer, Mary, Heather, Alexis, and Cami (I think that's it, sorry if I'm wrong)worked on our banner (which was flipping awesome). For our cheer, we did a spoof/parody of 'Don't Stop Believing' and that was pretty cool. We ended up winning the cheer off and banner competition because we're just that cool. Then comes pizza night, and that was flipping sweet. We had pizza, cookies, soda, candy, grapes (:D) and milk, and music playing, and us dancing (Me and Bobby perfecting our foot dance thingy). It was flipping cool. Then, Brother Low came in and had some milk, and we tried throwing grapes in his mouth. Then, as he was leaving he said, 'You guys have the number one party here' and that was cool because that means we won everything :D
Thursday might have been the best day there. So, it was the Sunday of EFY so we got to dress up in nice clothes, and I think that made everyone more serious. So, we get to the institute building and separate Young Men and Young Women, each going to different class thingy. The Young Men went into the east chapel, and we had a fireside devotional thingy. But, we took up most of the time planning and preparing for a surprise that we would put on the next day for the ladies. So, after the planning prep time, Sister Low gave us her fireside lesson thingy in the time that was left, and we went upstairs. We where taught by Sam, our BC. Then we had the Q/A panel come in, and that was very uplifting, they answered questions I didn't really know I had. So, after that is lunch, and then the variety show. Our group had two people in it, Mary and Emily (who both did flipping amazing, no lie) and then we had free time. After free time/dinner, we went back to the institute building for Musical Program (which was pretty nice) and then devotional. Brother Lows devotional was when I started getting teary. Then we practiced singing the medley, and I got even closer to being teary. Then Bobby and two other councilors went up and sang a really spiritually moving song, and my eyes started leaking. Then, we went to testimony meeting. I ended up starting off the testimony meeting (I'm not sure how I did it) and I started crying on my way up to the podium (oh, by the way, we had separated into companies, and we where with another company) and then, when I got up to the podium, I started bearing my testimony, and for the first part, I couldn't open my eyes, and was holding my head down, hoping that my voice wouldn't die (which it does when I get emotional, my throat starts contracting) and then, I finished, and went back down. The testimony meeting continued and my crying continued. I would guess at least 6 separate times I cried. Then, after the testimony meeting we walked back, and I started crying a little more. Then we separated (girls and boys) and went back to our dorms. At our devotional that night, Bobby had us bear our testimonies if we wanted too. All who hadn't gotten a chance bore their testimony. Almost every single boy cried that night in our dorm as we bore testimony to each other, we couldn't help our emotions as we felt the spirit.
Friday comes, and it was also a good day. We had FTSOY (For the Strength of Youth) classes and those where very well done. Then, we had some lunch. It was a pretty good lunch. Then we went and did a service project of tying fleece blankets for the homeless shelter. Then, it was free time, and that was good. Then, we had our Dance, and that was pretty sweet. Me and Bobby showed our foot dance thingy to peoples, and taught some peoples, and Bobby taught me the turn step part. Then we went to our Taking it Home part. But, the video didn't work, so we didn't watch it. But, the boys launched our surprise. We sang 'My Duty To God' and then we said to the ladies (and I completely mean this as I quote it) "Ladies, thank you for having the courage to stand tall, we love you" and then we started applauding them (probably for around three minutes or so) as we got on one knee. We kept applauding and applauding, it was nice. Then, apparently the girls had a surprise of their own. After we sat down, the ladies stood up and recited the Young Womens theme. Then, they sang and a song explaining how God truly knows who they are, and they are all daughters of God. (Beautiful Daughters of God in my opinion) and after that, was sang the EFY theme. Tears started leaking in our group, and I almost did cry. Then, we sang the EFY medley and more tears came. I again almost cried. Then, as we where going outside for our final devotional, I started crying. Then, as we sang "God Be With You Till We Meet Again" I started chocking up, and I had trouble singing. Then, we had a short lesson from each councilor (each councilor is amazing, Bobby, Ashley, and Natalie, I love you guys) and each lesson was amazing, I cried in each one I think. Then, as everyone was crying, we hugged, and that was a nice time too... haha... then we went back to the dorms, crying, laughing, and talking. (I almost cried again typing about this)
Then, today we said our good byes and left, possibly to never see our EFY family again, and we where truly a family, and I loved them like one. On the way home from EFY I almost cried because I probably would never see them again, and I was really depressed and quiet. (I had tears almost falling out of my eyes here)
So, that was my freaking amazing EFY experiance.
Thank you to all those in my company, you truly made this week amazing for me, and I will never forget that. I love each and everyone of you, and I thank you for accepting me. I know that this is God's true church, and he is our loving father. I know that Jesus is my lord and savior, as well as my older brother. He sacrificed himself for me, and for you, so that we may receive eternal salvation. I am so grateful for this. I know Joseph Smith was the prophet of the restoration, and he brought the lords church back to this Earth. I know President Thomas S. Monson is the true prophet of God on this planet. He knows what is best for us, and we would do well to listen to him. I am so grateful for The Book of Mormon, and what it has done for me. Once again, I am so grateful from my EFY family, you truly made this the best week of my 15 years of life. I am sad that it is over. I know that Jesus lives and he will come again for us. I know he is the only way to eternal salvation and happiness, and I hope and pray that one day I may be worthy to possibly even come close to achieving that goal. I know that this church is true, and I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ, amen.
(almost cried again, I'm surprised I didn't)
For all my EFY family company people, I thank you, and I love each and every single one of you. I hope that life may give you all that you need, and, good bye, I hope that we may meet again.
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